so i saw the ‘Last Words’ episode of How I Met Your Mother for the first time tonight and actively had to hold back the tears (i’m a bloody bloke, ok?). it’s basically an episode where Marshall tries to remember his Dad’s last words to him.
i have absolutely no idea what my Mum’s last words to me were. true, it was seven years ago, but i don’t think i knew back then either. even though the cancer got her just a month into being diagnosed, we’d known it was pretty widespread and that she didn’t have long, so we’d told each other that we loved one another and put all previous grievances behind us. it was all gravy and i don’t feel that anything was left hanging or unfinished. but the actual last words? for whatever they do or don’t matter in the slightest, i still have no idea what they were, and as the episode progressed, that fact started to resonate more and more, until i was on the verge of bawling like an idiot.
i consider myself very lucky that whilst i never got to say a final goodbye and nor can i remember her last words to me, we were on good terms when she died and we knew what we meant to each other. that’s a hell of a lot more than some people get. call it a draw.
